As I sit down to write this blog post, I looked at my engagement ring and thought – everything will be different by then.
I’m getting married in a year’s time, and I can feel a seismic shift happening within me, one that will change everything about my life as I know it, so that all this pain, uncertainty and unhappiness I’ve felt will have completely been irradicated.
I finally feel like I have to resolve to move forward on making changes in my life. I made the first one last night when I submitted my paperwork to terminate my PhD at the University of Toronto in Aerospace Engineering. I know it was the right decision, and it will free me up to pursue bigger and better endeavours.
I’m letting go of my old story.
My old story is that I was a perfectionist, and the most proper, by-the-book, academic you would have met for my age. I strived to be the best at anything and everything I undertook, and I would stop at nothing to achieve the best grades, the highest quality work, and the approval of parents, teachers and fellow students. I was a great student, one of the top in my class, and I worked my tail off for years to get there. I even did it two more times after my undergrad by getting consecutive Masters degrees overseas.
All that mattered to me was doing well in school and the approval of others.
But you want to know what that got me, in comparison to my classmates?
- The same degree / qualifications / pay
- LESS creativity than those that did other things during university
- No desire to take any risks in business for fear of failure
I’m going to re-write my story. It’s time.
And I’m going to share it with you here, as scary as that prospect is.
I’m committing to myself and to all of you that in a year’s time EVERYTHING will be different. It’s time to take some risks, change things up, do what is worthwhile and makes the world a better place.
I have no idea what it’s all going to look like, and I’m equal parts terrified and excited, and for once in my life, I love that.